The universal Loving Kindness

When I did the universal Loving Kindness exercise I made sure to do it before I went to sleep. I found out after the third time I did the exercise at night I slept better.

During the night before I go to sleep I play a soft sound of music that helps relax me along with taking deep breaths. I well on to say words of positive words for myself as well as others. These words are from "Universal Loving Kindness" meditation by Venerable Henepola Gunaratana: UNIVERSAL LOVING KINDNESS

May I be well, happy, and peaceful.
May no harm come to me.
May no difficulties come to me.
May no problems come to me.
May I always meet with success.
May I also have patience, courage, understanding, and determination
To meet and overcome inevitable difficulties, problems, and failures in life.
May my parents be well, happy, and peaceful.
May my teachers be well,and success
May my relatives be well and find peace
May my friends be well and find peace
May all persons be well and find peace
May my enemies be well and find peace
May all living beings be well, happy and peaceful

I realize when I was saying these words I needed to say them with energy and believe what I was saying. It was hard for me to say loving words when it came to my enemies. I started feeling very negative because it brought up images of the time when I was rape. God it took a lot out of me. I then started to see what areas I need to focus on in my life. Love. I need to start showing love and have more Patience in my life. Love and patience to myself and Love and patience to those who are close to me. I plan to continue the subtle mind exercise because I was able to receive more from it.

SO HAPPY

This blog isn't on the exercise, I just feel so happy that I was able to live out a dream. All my life I wanted to be on film. I guess I didn't have enough self confidence to go for it until a couple of days ago. I put my shyness aside along with negative thought and went in to be an extra for a movie with Mark Walberg (YESSS). Now that I had a taste, I don't want to stop having the feeling. I love being on the movie set, I love it so much that next month I will take acting classes (no shyness) and have fun doing something I love.


MIka

Subtle mind energy

I wish I had the CD to tell you how I was able to do the subtle mind exercise but I don't so I'm going to tell you another exercise that is simpler to what Dacher addresses in his book. Subtle mind energy is sometimes called the Aura. I found out by focusing on a point in my room I was able to block out everything. There was a point where I was scared because someone rang the door bell, but I was able to redirect my focus again. Part of my exercise was to hold my arms out, bring my hands closer together and feel the energy between my hands. During this exercise I had to say ‘I ask that the TrueSpirit teams work with me NOW. I ask that they give me everything to make me as sensitive as possible to all the subtle energies around me. I ask to have my sensitivity to subtle energies amplified a million fold. I ask for this now – and so it is – thank you.’ The quote from Constance Rodriguez a spiritual teacher who help others develop their Aura. Any how I continued with the exercise for nearly 30 minutes. When I was finish I was able to feel more of my surrounds (this was kind of weird) of the energy. When a family member was approaching the door to come in I could tell who it was before the door open. Is feeling energy good? I think so because it will help tell the body when it is in danger or not.

Loving Kindness exercise

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For some reason I didn't receive a CD to the Dacher book so I had to research ways to do the loving kindness exercise along with reading page 67-69

Love is the most powerful force. I kept this thought in my mind as I also thought of my children. They are the best parts on me. Relaxed myself in a room with no interferences around me was first hard but I was able to block out noise from outside chatter. Once I was I was able to focus , I thought of love of my children, their laughter, smiles, and funny faces they would make when they are playing. It was hard for me to turn the same feelings I have for my children on myself. After maybe 10-15 min give or take I decided to stop because I started realizing I never think about loving myself.

A time for me to Think

Today I decided to go sit in the park since it was a nice day (finally). For the first time I was silence and still. I had a change to reflect on chapter 4 integral healing and boy did I learn a lot. What can it take for my human existence to flourish? How can I start. In Dacher's book it say to remove negativity from the life (not in these words), but how could I when it is within my family? I thought of all the things I've done wrong to others to cause the negativity on my part. Even when I try to make amends, I get slap in my face with the past. So many people around me always look at the past. I try my hardest to forget the past since all it does is keep the heart bind up. Now that I know about how the neuropeptides in the body be it positive or negative has a long effect I intentional chose to keep things positive. I want my mind, body and spirit to be heal.

ForGiveness

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Forgiveness can be a powerful tool in healing. I'm beginning to learn this though my life. Without forgiven others who has hurt your soul or body sickness can take over. So I choice to forgive my father for not being here in my life the way a father should. I choice to forgive my mother and my aunts for not sending me on a true path. I choice to see a positive side to this, I am stronger, loving, honest, and as I continue my goals spiritual. Thank you GOD for keeping me as I go through life's test...

Michael Jackson via last.fm

I'm fill with so much sadness for the lost of such a beautiful person (Michael Jackson) who was able to look pass the media. I never met the man but I wish those who were close to him had help with him with the addition. Now there is a new generation of kids who are playing Jackson 5 and MJ music I hope his music will live on. Make God Bless him