Subtle mind energy

I wish I had the CD to tell you how I was able to do the subtle mind exercise but I don't so I'm going to tell you another exercise that is simpler to what Dacher addresses in his book. Subtle mind energy is sometimes called the Aura. I found out by focusing on a point in my room I was able to block out everything. There was a point where I was scared because someone rang the door bell, but I was able to redirect my focus again. Part of my exercise was to hold my arms out, bring my hands closer together and feel the energy between my hands. During this exercise I had to say ‘I ask that the TrueSpirit teams work with me NOW. I ask that they give me everything to make me as sensitive as possible to all the subtle energies around me. I ask to have my sensitivity to subtle energies amplified a million fold. I ask for this now – and so it is – thank you.’ The quote from Constance Rodriguez a spiritual teacher who help others develop their Aura. Any how I continued with the exercise for nearly 30 minutes. When I was finish I was able to feel more of my surrounds (this was kind of weird) of the energy. When a family member was approaching the door to come in I could tell who it was before the door open. Is feeling energy good? I think so because it will help tell the body when it is in danger or not.

Loving Kindness exercise

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For some reason I didn't receive a CD to the Dacher book so I had to research ways to do the loving kindness exercise along with reading page 67-69

Love is the most powerful force. I kept this thought in my mind as I also thought of my children. They are the best parts on me. Relaxed myself in a room with no interferences around me was first hard but I was able to block out noise from outside chatter. Once I was I was able to focus , I thought of love of my children, their laughter, smiles, and funny faces they would make when they are playing. It was hard for me to turn the same feelings I have for my children on myself. After maybe 10-15 min give or take I decided to stop because I started realizing I never think about loving myself.

A time for me to Think

Today I decided to go sit in the park since it was a nice day (finally). For the first time I was silence and still. I had a change to reflect on chapter 4 integral healing and boy did I learn a lot. What can it take for my human existence to flourish? How can I start. In Dacher's book it say to remove negativity from the life (not in these words), but how could I when it is within my family? I thought of all the things I've done wrong to others to cause the negativity on my part. Even when I try to make amends, I get slap in my face with the past. So many people around me always look at the past. I try my hardest to forget the past since all it does is keep the heart bind up. Now that I know about how the neuropeptides in the body be it positive or negative has a long effect I intentional chose to keep things positive. I want my mind, body and spirit to be heal.

ForGiveness

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Forgiveness can be a powerful tool in healing. I'm beginning to learn this though my life. Without forgiven others who has hurt your soul or body sickness can take over. So I choice to forgive my father for not being here in my life the way a father should. I choice to forgive my mother and my aunts for not sending me on a true path. I choice to see a positive side to this, I am stronger, loving, honest, and as I continue my goals spiritual. Thank you GOD for keeping me as I go through life's test...

Michael Jackson via last.fm

I'm fill with so much sadness for the lost of such a beautiful person (Michael Jackson) who was able to look pass the media. I never met the man but I wish those who were close to him had help with him with the addition. Now there is a new generation of kids who are playing Jackson 5 and MJ music I hope his music will live on. Make God Bless him

My Reflection

As I reflect on my life I know there are many things I need to work on. On the scale of 1 - 10 my physical well being is 5. I say 5 because of my health. I'm not able to do the things I used too to like taking long walks or jogging. Multiple sclerosis has taken a lot out of me. My spirituality, where can I start? Well on a scale of 1 - 10 I'm not sure. I guess I could say 3 and not because I don't know who my God is or that I don't like to say I'm a christian, it's only because I hear to many mixed messages on how to live. On my psychological well being I feel I'm a 6. This because I came a long way from where I was towards myself and others. I do know I still have a lot of growing to do.

My goals to have optimal well being for my physical body is to start having a better diet and to continue going to the gym. I feel once I start eating three meals a day with the MS diet my body will improve. A spiritual goal for me is to start praying more, find a church that I feel welcome in that truly follow the way to salvation. My psychological goal is find a way to remove the bad stress, the anger, and the depression.

As I try to be on a path to have my goals become reality I will set up a exercising program that will show me how to eat ie time, how much cal etc. I will then find a fitness coach that can show me the right equipment to use to have better shape. Spiritual I plan to go to different churches and research online to see what each church follow. I would also like to meet more christian people who are non judgemental, this will help me talk to people to find out their views and energy. Lastly for my psychological goal I will continue meeting with my counselor, and communicate better with the love ones around me.

The Crime of the Century relaxation exercise was frustrating at first but toward the middle I became dizzy. I feel like I wasn't in my body. (still not sure how to take that one) Over all I think I will try this exercise again

Il rilassamento della mente, il corpo e lo spirito

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I'm sitting in a room with no windows, no lights, only the soft sounds of hynotic music in the back ground. I'm taking 10 deep breaths. I feel my heart beating, my head feels light. I'm relax. The back ground music takes me to a happy place in my youth where I feel safe. I feel myself running through a field that smells like Iris. The positive energy is all around me. This is GOD!